Some rules are MEANT to be broken.
My friend called me asking me if I could pick him up from church his dad had, had an emergency and couldn’t pick him. He had to beg me and even pay for the gas to get me to help him, it wasn’t like I hated church I go every Sunday, but today was Wednesday. Wednesday meant all the younger people went, all the people my age, all the people that would love to talk to me and ask me what I’m doing with my life and if I’m going to college and all that nonsense, I dislike those people. But it wasn’t the people that would be there, it was more the person that was there, she was there. We hadn’t seen each other ever since we sorta kinda broke it off but not really, and I knew if we ever saw each other things would go down, I think she knew to. Reluctantly I went to the church to pick him up, he was still in his group when I got there so I sat down in a corner kinda hidden, but they always find you, one of my not-to-close-but-he-thinks-were-close friend found me and he was never the quiet one to just let it slip that a person that never comes to Wednesday was here so of course he drew a crowd, “What are you doing here man?” He asked.
“Nothing just picking up my friend who needs a ride home” after that it pretty much went downhill, the usual questions were asked and the usual answers were given, the crowd was leaving and it was down to the friends I kinda cared about. That was when I saw her, of course it had to be in the calm after roar of the crowd, after I had put up all my walls to hide certain things from the “close” friends. She saw me, and I thought my other friend could make a scene, of course everyone new what had happened between us, drama is drama, so of course every stopped and watched, and listened as soon as they understood what was going down. To me it felt like a old western movie you know the one where two cowboys do a shoutout cuz “This town ain’t big enough for the two of us” even though it totally is. We made eye contact and I knew it couldn’t be avoided any longer, the whole room was quiet waiting for us to break the silence, I of course being a gentleman, decided I should go first and I chose my words carefully when I said “Girls first”. Now I don’t plan things at all, i am the worst planner of all time, but let me tell you this, I have planned this moment since I knew it would happen, she lied to me, she cheated on me, she was going to regret it, I was going to burn her in front of all her friends. What I said got some soft laughs, she simply replied with “Hello” I replied with a “Hi”. She had to ask the obvious question “What are you doing here?” Burn number one! “Picking up one of your boyfriends” I answered. I didn’t care what she thought of me or what everyone else did I wanted to hurt her the way she hurt me. She of course made the statement, “I have never had any boyfriends” I had gone over every possible way this could go, I knew what I had to say next, “That’s right! You get boys when you want something from them, and when one boy doesn’t do what you want him to do you go to another one, so you have never had a boyfriend cuz you have never wanted one long enough.” It was harsh but I felt it was true. She never knew me that well so I felt like I was going to win this, she said “I do not do that!” This was going to be to easy, “Brittany I know you better then you know yourself, you only wanted me because you had a problem once I fixed those problems you only wanted me cuz I made you wet. That’s it.” Again harsh, but she deserved it. “I loved you, Nathan!” She threw in the love card oh bother. “Loved with a d Brittany you loved me, you don’t anymore, you said you loved me to get what you wanted, it’s over now.” Now I never new how to finish it cuz I always fell asleep right before I ended it in my head, so when she said “Nathan” with tears in her eyes, “I know you just as much as you know me, even if you think I don’t, I know you have been planning this in your head for the last 4 months, I know you know every way this could go, I know you have lost sleep over this, I know this Nathan, so do your worst I have prepared myself for whatever you can say, it won’t matter, I’ll go on with my life and you’ll go on with yours, I know you need to vent about this so vent, I’m listening”
So I vented, I thought of all the things she had done to me she cheated, she let someone else see her naked, she made me try to become someone I’m not, she was open to every guy, she told my secrets to everyone, I thought of all those things and I was ready to let lose, and this is what I said, “Your prepared for anything uhh?” I took a step towards her, “Thought of everything I could say and formed a wall around it uhh?” A took another step towards her ” Well I think I have something you haven’t thought of,” and as I took my last step toward her I looked her in the eyes, and in front of everyone, moving in for kiss I said “I love you”
And I kissed her.
She didn’t stop me.
And she kissed me back.
And ohh, it was bliss, the feel of her next to me, intertwining my had in hers, running my other through her hair. Her hand wrapped around my head, holding on to each other like we hanging from a cliff, we didn’t stop cuz it felt awkward we stopped because she couldn’t breathe, and I had anger still, she was mine, and she was always mine, she will always be mine, and the world had tried to keep us away. So I with all my power, hugged her with one hand, she her both around me, with the other hand free, I flipped of the world.